Choosing to Stay
Early in my second year of college, I felt like I had lost my purpose in life. It seemed like no matter what I did or who I had around me, happiness was something I couldn’t achieve. Because of this, I came to the realization that not living was an option I had.
So I went to the store and bought a pack of razor blades with the plan of taking my own life. When I got back to my dorm, I stared at the blades for a while, touching them, making quick cuts on myself to see what the pain would be like. Something in me decided that maybe I should wait to do this.
The next day I woke up and went to breakfast with my friends, and I had a great time. I then had a phone call with my girlfriend where we decided I would go visit her that weekend. It was in that moment I realized I made the right decision to stay.
If I had not decided to stay another day, I wouldn’t have made some of the friends I have today or had any of the experiences I had throughout the rest of that year.